hopeful

ever since i was little, i've loved being onstage. i think there is such an energy from a live stage that is not quite the same on the big screen. when i was little, i auditioned for a production of the king and i at age five, even though i was three years too young to be auditioning for that company. but they loved me so much that i made the cut as the littlest princess that everyone carried around. even backstage ;).

i wasn't in the musical last year (adressed later) and i didn't realize that i missed being onstage so much until this august, on out family's new york city vacation.

we saw wicked, how to succeed, catch me if you can, and spiderman. needless to say, our newsies show will be getting t's own post in the near future. (ahhh!) i really remembered how much i love it. it's been a while since i've been in a show, and i remembered how much i missed it.

funny story: in spiderman, the green goblin says something to the effect of "do i look crazy to you?!!" to spiderman. i little bow near the front couldn't help but call out "YES!" and as the ripples of laughter crossed the theatre, the actors played off of it. that's why i love the stage.

also we got the les miserables 25th anniversary concert edition from netflix. and it's bad that i haven't sent it back yet. because i don't have spare three hours lying around to watch it. .....but i kind of do that anyway..... and i might be able to play all of the les mis sheet music book on the piano.... maybe.... IT IS THAT GOOD. watch it. pretty please with cherries on top?

there are things that i love to do. i have lists of them in my journal.

when i was twelve, my dad and i wached this on byu tv. and i've secretly reallyreallyreally wanted to be a young ambassador ever since. although most times i'm realistic and realize that i've never had prefessional dance lessons or singing lessons. so that's pretty slim. but i'll never rule it out.but that's what secret dreams are for, right?

i'm not bad. really, i'm not. i love the stage. i feel comfortable on it and have been told i have lots of stage presence. but it's a little discouraging: my in ninth grade, i got an ensemble part, mainly because of senority and the drama teacher, etc. i was excited for the next year, when there would be a new drama teacher with no stereotypes and casting ideas already in her head. then i found out that the  musical was going to be grease. now i have nothing against that, but i realized that for me at least, i didn't want to surround myself with that for three months from two to six every day. (i mean really "oh you're secretly hot and abandoned your morals for me? OF COURSE we can be seen in public now!!")

although, i went to see grease, and they did a phenomenal job! really, i did not think that our school had it in them hahaha.

so now the drama teacher isn't new anymore and i've been told by her class that they've been discussing who would be a good fit for each part. cooooool. but i really want this. so i've already started working for my audition (in december). and that's all i can do. i know i'm being dramamtic about this haha but i can say one of two things.

that's why i love the stage, duh ;)

and it will just mean that more to me if when i get a part. (a girl can dream, right)